Amanda's Life

We are supposed to have an intervention for my dad this weekend. His health has been declining A LOT lately and we are all (mom, sister, grandfather, me, and a nurse), supposed to meet over there Saturday to “discuss” him moving into an assisted living facility. This isn’t going to go well at all. He’s not going to be happy, there going to be lots of yelling and probably cussing. I am hoping I can just keep my cool and stay quiet. This isn’t my ballgame. He’s not going to move until he wants to move.

He had been talking about a month ago about buying and moving into a handicapped accessible house but, as far as I know that isn’t happening. It hasn’t been mentioned since the one time, which was before they toured the place.

At the end of the day, no one likes their freedoms being taken away, no one likes being told they can’t do something or are unable to take care of themselves but according to his nurse, he has gotten to that point.

He has enough mental capability that he shouldn’t need a nursing home BUT, he needs someone more experienced to handle/make sure he’s taking his MANY medicines, helping him around the house, and making sure that his health is in a good place.

This year alone he’s been in the hospital 3 times. He’s been in the hospital for at least a week 3 times this year and he’s about to the point it’s going to need to happen again.

No one wanted this time to come but we all know that he doesn’t have much time left.

I also let Jonathan know how mad at him I would be if he didn’t address any health concerns like this that he had when they first started. Who knows if addressing things earlier would have helped but, learning you have diabetes and essentially doing nothing to change your lifestyle beyond taking a pill at the beginning, leading to insulin, leading to blood clots, strokes, heart attacks, blindness, loss of a leg due to clots, seems like a battle that could have been easier with lifestyle change at the beginning.

I really hope this meeting on Saturday goes well but, I know more than likely he will be super unhappy and it will most likely result in yelling, possibly a heart attack. I just hope that we can all remain calm and let him know we’re all coming from a place of love. We’ll see what happens.

Apparently this is going to be a day to remember. News reports were flashing all over my phone all day. People. Stormed. The. White. House. WTF?! I don’t even know what else to say to this one.

In my personal life, calories were on point, more cleaning of the house, and taking care of the child. Jonathan got a temp crown put onto a tooth that needed it.

I also got some double point knitting needles in and started on some socks! Yay!

Here’s to another chance tomorrow for us to make things better. We and our children have to live here, we need to do better.

Another day down. I managed to get my Bible reading in for today as well. My legs were sore from working out yesterday so I did half of a workout. My neck is also bothering me for some reason.

I am going to work on reading only before lunch. I spend so much time going back and forth between watching shows and reading, I would like to try and split up my day so I get a little of both.

Here’s to another day tomorrow!

New year, new plan?

I am hoping to pick back up with the daily blogging. It may not be pretty, in fact it will probably be super boring but it gives me something to do at the end of the night.

Most of these will probably end up in the “private journal” category but, it is what it is.

Today was my first day back on track after months of not working out and not eating completely on plan. We had a lot of fun making cookies and enjoying ourselves with family but it’s time to lose the weight I’ve gained in the last 2 months.

It’s time to find a way to unload my thoughts.

It’s time to find a way to create again.

Happy 2021! It’s bound to be better than 2020 right?